A Shield Mate’s Journey

What is a shield mate?

Have you ever seen a battle scene in a movie where one person is fighting with a sword, and someone was beside him holding a shield and protecting him on the opposite side from the sword, not hindering the one actively fighting. They worked together and were a much better team than if they were alone. Marriage is like that. Husband and wife are to be a team fighting together against an enemy. God has put the two of you together to fight alongside each other, and protect each other. Many times the case is often the opposite, we are fighting against each other, and the enemy is watching with great delight as we win the battle in his favor instead of for our King.

I believe that as a wife, it is my job to be my husband’s shield mate. If my husband is engaged in the battle, he is the one actively fighting and protecting my children and I from the enemy. If he is not I feel lost, alone and vulnerable. If he is not it is my job to encourage him to follow The King into battle. When he does, I need to join him in the battle as his shield mate. I need to block and protect my husband from attacks lobed by the enemy. I also need to block my husband from pursuing, and falling for the enemy’s tricks and lies. My job is to point him back to obeying and following hard after The King.

Why, do I need to be a shield mate?

We are in a battle. This battle is for our souls. The battle between good and evil. A battle between God (our King) and Satan (the enemy). 

Our enemy’s job is to kill, steal and destroy anything and everything that God has made and loves. 

God has designed marriage and said that it was not good for man to be alone. When God made Eve from Adam’s side, and brought them together God pronounced it very good, not just good. God knew that life would be hard to live alone. He knew that Adam would need a helpmate/helper suitable. In Hebrew those words are translated Ezer kenegdo. Ezer is used in the bible to describe only God Himself, when man desperately needed God to come through, to be a life saver.  

The true Hebrew meaning of “ezer”  is actually a combination of two words, strength and power. Definitions of ezer that are used in the Bible can mean “to save” or “to be strong.” In Genesis 2:18b, when God speaks of the woman He is to create to relieve the man’s loneliness, He is surely not creating this woman to be the man’s savior. This makes no sense. God creates this new human to be, like the man, a power (or strength) superior to the animals. This is the true meaning of ezer as it is used in this passage.

The second word from Genesis 2:18b that we must examine is kenegdô. This word appears in the Bible only once.  In Hebrew, the root keneged means “equal,” When God creates Eve from Adam’s rib, I believe that His intent is that she will be—unlike the animals—”a power (or strength) equal to him.”  ezer

kenegdo fills the literary function of two phrases in Genesis 1—“in the image of God” and “male and female He created them.” Eve is in Adam’s image to the degree that she is his equal—just as man is created in God’s image in that he fulfills an comparable role, “male and female He created them” does not lead us to conclude the superiority of either.

“The word ezer is used only twenty other places in the entire Old Testament.  And in every other instance the person being described is God himself, when you need him to come through for you *desperately*. (Deut 33:26, 29; Ps 121:1-2; Ps 33:20; Ps 115:9-11) 

“Most of the contexts are life and death by the way, and God is your only hope.  Your ezer.  If he is not there beside you…you are dead. A better translation therefore for ezer would be “lifesaver”. Kenegdo means alongside, or opposite to, a counterpart.”  "Redeemed women of God have tender, merciful hearts, backbones of steel, and hands that have been trained for battle. There is something incredibly fierce in the heart of a woman that is to be contended with, not dismissed, not disdained, but recognized, honored, welcomed and trained." (Captivating, 31-32)

So get ready for battle ladies, put on the Armor of God and take your place beside your husband. Engage and fight beside  him, not against him, but together, side by side, protecting each other, lifting each other up, pointing each other to God, encouraging one another. That is the only way to survive the attacks launched against God's beloved children. We need to work together for the benefit of each other and for those God has blessed us with our children. To work against each other is to work for the enemy. To work and fight against each other, only with yourself in mind is also a way you will join with the enemies ranks. Life together is meant to be shared, not to be looking out for number one. It is to look out for the others that God has put into your life as well. God meant for you to be equal partners in this life. He told Adam and Eve to rule over the earth and subdue it. He did not mean for us to be alone, we are equally needed in this battle. 

Praise God!

^{Genesis 2:18, 20b-24 (NIRV)} The Lord God said, "It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper who is just right for him."
 But Adam didn't find a helper that was right for him. So the Lord God caused him to fall into a deep sleep. While the man was sleeping, the Lord God took out one of his ribs. He closed up the opening that was in his side.
 Then the Lord God made a woman. He made her from the rib he had taken out of the man. And he brought her to him.
  The man said,
   "Her bones have come from my bones.
      Her body has come from my body.
   She will be named 'woman,'
      because she was taken out of a man."

That's why a man will leave his father and mother and be joined to his wife. The two of them will become one.

^{Genesis 1:26-28 (NIRV)}

 Then God said, "Let us make man in our likeness. Let them rule over the fish in the waters and the birds of the air. Let them rule over the livestock and over the whole earth. Let them rule over all of the creatures that move along the ground."

  So God created man in his own likeness.
      He created him in the likeness of God.
      He created them as male and female.

     God blessed them. He said to them, "Have children and increase your numbers. Fill the earth and bring it under your control. Rule over the fish in the waters and the birds of the air. Rule over every living creature that moves on the ground."

What Am I Afraid Of?

A lot!
As I grow older and look back on my life, I can see that a lot of what I did or didn't do was done out of fear. I know I have parented out of fear (especially after  our daughter Taylor died), I was afraid of letting them out of my sight (still am sometimes), afraid of swimming pools, and beaches, and the list could go on. Even though my kids are teenagers and adults, I still worry about the myriad of things that could go wrong, now though, I have less control, because they need more independence to grow up and learn to take care of themselves. It has been easier with Stephanie and Jaydyn to let them grow up, because they were way more cautious about doing things, I have passed some of my fear down to them (this is something I regret) but they are doing ok. My youngest is a different story, she is 15 1/2 and not really afraid to do anything. I think she is the healthiest in that way, she is not afraid of meeting and making new friends, she goes places by herself, because she wants too.  She knows how to look out for herself, and walk down ways that are safer, she is responsible and lets me know where she is going, and with who, and she has never given me a reason not to trust her. She just has a more adventurous spirit than I have. She is not rebellious and reckless like I was at her age, for that I thank God. She is confidant. At times I envy her.
I also worry about Cam and his health, about decisions we have made concerning the future, my health, etc. The list could go on but I will stop there, You don't need all the boring details. :)
God has been teaching me lately though many different ways that I have been struggling with fear and anxiety for a long time now and that He really wants me to see what I am doing so that I will let Him help me with it. The clearest way He has shown me how I am, is, by showing me what it looks like in our new puppy. I know that I make her more fearful, because of the way I "what if" everything. My puppy has an incredibly hard time encountering anything new, new sounds, new places, new dogs, new people. And I really don't know how to help her. I watch her and feel for her, I wish she had more confidence, and could be the puppy she is with us, with others. It doesn't take her very long when someone comes over to get used to them, then she loves them wholeheartedly, I just wish she didn't start off so scared. She is incredibly smart and learns tricks quickly, it is just the fear that holds her back. I watch Dog Whisperer all the time, it's my favourite show, so I know a lot of her fearful behaviour has to do with me. If I would just relax and not "what if" everything, she would too. We are working at that, and looking for a person that can help us.
We are also going through a series on mental health at church, that is speaking very clearly to me about this issue. Thanks Todd. :)
I have also struggled with fear in our marriage. Cam has never hurt me in anyway, except for in the pornography/lust area. I really don't know why I am afraid of confrontation, or speaking to him about my needs, or our girls needs. He has never physically hurt us, or neglected us. He has been a good husband and father. My dad was also a good man, so I don't even sufferer with past issues in that way. I really don't understand why I think and react the way I do, I just do. Weird!
Anyway lately I have been determined to figure this thing out, trying to get to the bottom of this. I may never actually figure it all out, but need to trust God with this, that He knows, and He is faithful to complete a good work in  me.
Todd gave a us some ideas to help us on Sunday, talking to a doctor, friends, etc. One of the other things Todd said to do was to find and memorize scripture that dealt with fear, and trusting God.  Here are some of the ones I will be trying to memorize :)

 Roman's 8:15-16, 38-39 (NLT)
¹⁵ So you have not received a spirit that makes you fearful slaves. Instead, you received God’s Spirit when he adopted you as his own children.^[h] Now we call him, “Abba, Father.”^[i] 16For his Spirit joins with our spirit to affirm that we are God’s children. 
³⁸ And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,^[a] neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. ³⁹ No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.

2 Timothy 1:6-8 (NLT)

⁶ This is why I remind you to fan into flames the spiritual gift God gave you when I laid my hands on you. ⁷ For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline.

^{Hebrews 13:5-6 (NLT)
5} Don’t love money; be satisfied with what you have. For God has said,

   “I will never fail you.
      I will never abandon you.”^[a]

 ⁶ So we can say with confidence,

   “The LORD is my helper,
      so I will have no fear.
      What can mere people do to me?”^[b]

When I look at God's Word about fear, I realize that not only do I have a problem with fear, but I also have a problem with trusting God with my whole life, and that I have control issues. I think I am having trouble with allowing God to have His way in my life. I want to control what happens. I want my way. But I also realize that because of these things I struggle with fear. 


What I really found interesting is that the only thing I should fear is God, and not in a scary kind of fear (because I am His child, even though He has the power of life and death in my life), but in an awe kind of fear because of His Greatness, His mercy, His power, and His glory. When I get that right, it will make a difference in my life. It really is about trusting God with everything, realizing that He does not want to hurt me, and that He will be with me no matter what happens. So instead of saying what if, I need to say God already knows what is going to happen and He is with me so I don't need to fear. I understand that this lesson will take me a lifetime to learn, I have a lot of very unhealthy patterns to unlearn and replace with truth. I have listened to way too many lies from my enemy. God give me ears only for your truth, free my mind from the fears and limitations that that has placed on my life, help me to live boldly, confidently, fully yours. Thank you God.


I was also very intrigued by these verses below...

^{1 Peter 3:5-7 (NLT)}

⁵ This is how the holy women of old made themselves beautiful. They trusted God and accepted the authority of their husbands. ⁶ For instance, Sarah obeyed her husband, Abraham, and called him her master. You are her daughters when you do what is right without fear of what your husbands might do. ⁷ In the same way, you husbands must give honor to your wives. Treat your wife with understanding as you live together. She may be weaker than you are, but she is your equal partner in God’s gift of new life. Treat her as you should so your prayers will not be hindered.


This is God's plan for us as wives in the bible, to be like Sarah, to obey without fear. This is what was called beautiful. I was curious why Sarah was pointed out, so I read what scripture said about her, here's some of what I found out...


Sarah's name used to be Sarai. She was married to Abram, who was later to be called Abraham. Abram was told by God to pack up and move away from everything they knew and follow God. Abram wasn't told where they were going, He was just told to follow. So Abram did, and Sarai did as well. During their travels they went through Eygpt, and because she was beautiful, Abram told her to lie and say she was his sister instead of his wife. She did? God took care of her even though her husband's fear got the better of him. Even though The Eygptian ruler took her into his palace, God protected her and didn't let anything happen to her. This happened, not once but twice. She obeyed Abram., and did what she was told, I believe it was because she trusted God, He had come through for her before.
God had also given her a child in her old age and Abram's old age, even though it was impossible, and she did doubt, and tried to do it her way. Her way only caused a lot of problems for her. 
God always did as He said He would. Sarah even trusted God with their only child Isaac, when God told Abraham to sacrifice Isaac, to test Abraham's faith. 

Sarah learned to obey her husband because she learned that God could be trusted, that God was watching out for her, and that God was fully in charge of her life and her family's life. I believe that is why God pointed her out. Her trust in God is remarkable. I am not sure I would have been obedient in her place. I think I would have become a nagging wife. I definitely would have been fearful.

I want to be like Sarah, trusting God no matter what the circumstances.
Cam is a good man, but like anyone else he is human, and makes mistakes. It is hard to give up wanting to do everything my way, especially because of my fear and anxiety. I want to control everything, because I think that if I could just control everything I wouldn't have to fear, but I know in my heart that this way of thinking is a lie.
If left up to me, I would be so frozen with fear in short order, because I can't control everything, that my life really wouldn't be about living at all. I would become a prisoner of my fear.
I want to be able to submit to Cam easily, knowing that it is in God that I put my trust. That God has our best interests at heart, that God has my back :) Then life lived together would become easier, more free and full of the exciting adventure that God would want us to have. There would be no fear of the "what if's", no fear of death, no fear of failure, or of other's opinions, or fear of the future. What would that be like? I would love to find out!! That is the path that God would have me on. Praise God!
This is the path that I am switching to, I am following God, yes I may stray, but I am confident that God will show me when I try to go down the old paths of fear. He wants the best for me, because then He gets all the glory.

Clarification

I just wanted everyone to be clear, I am not complaining, everyone has their tough times in life, and every parent makes mistakes, ask our girls, we do too, I’m just giving some background about what we had felt or had experienced in our lives, so that we could  help you understand how great our God is, and what a miracle He has performed in us.  We also wanted others who might benefit from this blog to understand that we get it. That we may have had similar experiences.

We never wanted anyone to take this as a personal attack, not my family, or Cam’s, and I’m sorry if it felt that way. That was absolutely not my intention. It was not said out of malice, or hatred.

That being said, I also believe what I have written to be an honest assessment of our feelings.

God in His mercy has done so much for us, both personally and in our marriage. Yes, we still struggle, but definitely not to the same degree, or with the same things. God is not finished with us yet and God won’t quit till we are what He created us to be, a Masterpiece. All we wanted to accomplish with this blog is to reveal God’s mercy and His glory through our story. God is good, and continues to prove that to us over and over.

I wanted you to understand to what depth my soul was in pain, and Cam’s. Everyone’s perspective is a little different than someone else’s. What we saw and felt may have been quite different from another’s perspective, but that doesn’t change how we felt at the time. It doesn’t change the message our heart's received growing up.

I hated myself! understand that! I hid from those who loved me most, I never reached out the way I should have for help. God reached out to me. I was always afraid, always anxious. I probably looked stuck up, because I kept to myself and my kids, but that was the level of my anxiety. I even hid from Cam. I couldn’t seem to get beyond my pain until God reached out to me, and for that I am forever grateful. I am not the same woman I used to be, it has been a slow gradual change. I am glad He has been patient with me, I know I couldn’t have done it alone. God is always good!

I would like for this blog to be a place where others can see what God has done with us, and gain hope for their own situations. I want to give God all the glory, it has not been done in our strength, but God’s.

God bless you as you read this, may He reach down into your lives and do miraculous things for you. God loves to make miracles out of broken people. Praise God He doesn’t leave us the way we are!

A Little More Of Our Story

I know God is asking me to share more of our story, I think it is to help others to understand that, although I don't know exactly what you feel in your situation, that I do understand some of what you are feeling. I am not sure who is reading this, but God knows and he wants to reach you, care for you and ask you to put your trust in Him. It's the only way! How do I know this? I know because of the journey that I have been on.
Cam and I have been together 25 and a half years in total. Dating for one and half, living together for another year and a half, and then married for 22 and a half years. Some of these years have been great years with wonderful memories, some of them have been mediocre, plodding along kind of years, and some of them have downright sucked.
We met during my years of rebellion against anything I grew up learning. I met Cam when I was at the end of my 17th year. I hated myself and didn't really care what I did. In some ways I was trying hard to ruin myself. I knew right from wrong, I grew up in a Christian, Bible believing home. I knew the rules of conduct that I was supposed to keep as a good girl, and I did everything I could to trash that. I didn't want to be a good girl, that hadn't got me very far...
I was rejected by the kids in school, ridiculed, bullied, just because I was the good girl, the shy one who never told on them. I was ridiculed by my teachers for being a suck, or a slow learner. Even at home I never felt like I measured up to what my mom wanted me to be.
I was used goods, I had been molested by a friend in the neighbourhood at 10, raped at a party at the beginning of my 17th year, and used for whatever someone could get out of me. No one really wanted to know who I was, they only wanted someone who would agree with their lifestyle and party, or someone who they could take advantage of, someone who wouldn't fight back. That was me! Oh, I looked like I was having fun on the outside, but on the inside I was a mess. I let others convince me that I was not enough, that I needed their friendships for validation. That my life was only needed as a way to meet their needs. I think the enemy of my soul had whispered those lies to me for most of my life, so it didn't take much for me to believe them.
This is who I was when I met Cam, I was a mess, I had bottled myself up, refusing to show anyone the real me, in case they destroyed what little there was of me. I was also seething underneath the surface, angry, so angry at what life had dealt me, and angry at God, if there was a God, who would be so cruel. I was a shattered empty shell of a person.
Cam had his issues as well, he had self esteem issues, he felt like he never measured up, his heart was broken by a previous girlfriend who had not been faithful, he had been let down by his parents who were too tired or too busy to pay attention to their youngest child, he felt like he wasn't enough to hold their attention, he was a loner, seemingly content to be alone in his room with his music and his books. Fantasy was better than reality. He looked tough and confidant on the outside, but inside he was a scared, lonely little boy desperately seeking approval, who's self esteem was shattered.
Both of us were broken, both of us came into this relationship looking for different things, needing different needs met. Cam upon later confession I learned had determined that he would not allow anyone else to hurt him as badly as the last girl, so he decided he would use them and then leave them, leaving women in his wake instead of being used and hurt again. I was the next one. I had been hurt so much, that I never gave anyone a chance, when they got close to seeing who I was I would break up with the guys I dated and there were quite a few. I didn't want to be hurt. But what my soul was crying out for was someone who could see past my walls and would want to get to know me. Someone who would not use me.
 I met Cam shortly after we found out my dad was dying of Acute Leukaemia. I was devastated, I loved my dad more than anyone else in my world, he was the only one it seemed at the time, that really tried to know me and loved who I was. When I would run away from home after a fight with my mom, he would follow me in the car, and try to talk with me, actually he would sit there and listen as I complained about my mom. He would say he loved me, he would take me out for coffee, and sometimes dinner, just to try to understand what was going on. He was a quiet and gentle man. He didn't want to fight, and avoided conflict at all costs, including in making me respect my mom or helping my mom to understand that I was in pain.
Anyway to make a point in all of this, we were two really messed up kids, trying desperately to find an anchor in life, and we found each other in our storms. This was probably not the ideal situation, even though I believe that Cam was the one that God had for me, we were broken, and probably to fragile to be together.
We were both selfish in our motives.
At the time we both loved to party with our friends and go to the bars or to a lounge and drink to have a good time. I would often sleep over at his house on the weekends when his parents were at the cabin. I knew the rules of being a good girl, but I didn't keep any of them. Cam wasn't taught Christian values at home, as his parents didn't go to church or encourage their kids to either, so to Cam our life was the normal accepted way to be in a relationship, but I knew different and was being torn up inside because of the guilt I was feeling, but doing my best to stuff it and ignore my feelings. Cam is the only guy I ever brought home to meet my parents, there was something different about him.
Cam's plans to just use the next girl and then leave her never worked out for him, he was too good. I was going through a really hard time, my dad was dying, and I was having a hard time coping with the realities of that, so he couldn't bring himself to leave me even though at times he has told me it was tough to stick it out. I was a mess.
After my dad died my mom kicked me out because she was grieving and couldn't cope with a rebellious disrespectful daughter. Cam supported me for awhile while I was on my own, then we decided to move in together. That worked out pretty good, so we decided to get married.
Our relationship changed after we got married. All my unresolved guilt about my molestation when I was young, and the rape in my teen years, and our premarital sex got to me. I became someone different than Cam had come to know. I became cold, unresponsive, a prude. Sex was not fun after we got married, which was weird, because now it was supposed to be the right timing for it. We grew distant, I became pregnant with our first child 3 months after we got married, and I was even more cold toward Cam. My whole life became focused on our daughter, I forgot about Cam.
Cam was used to being alone, and he retreated from us. I didn't really notice though until many years later, approximately 15 years later. During that time we had 4 more daughters. One through foster care. Our second daughter lived for 12 weeks and died of SIDS, which made me even more focused on our children, I couldn't bear the thought of losing another, Cam retreated more in his own grief, and became angry and resentful of me and the kids. I started noticing the distance between us when our girls grew older and didn't need me as much, but by then Cam had been desperately hurt by my indifference to his needs and my lack of attention. He felt unloved, unwanted. We felt like we were only roommates, using each other for what we needed, me a provider and father for our kids, and him a mother and the occasional sex when ever he could get it. (not very often)
I knew before we got married that Cam viewed porn, and went to the strip clubs with his friends, but I assumed that after we were married, and for sure after he became a Christian that those things weren't an issue anymore. I saw no evidence and so I really never thought about it until in 2005, I was shocked when I started up our computer one day and there it was, an eporn magazine. That devastated me. How could he, no wonder he was so distant, how could I measure up to that. How disgusting!!!
I was angry, but God met me in that anger and helped me to see that we both needed to work on our marriage, that I couldn't just expect Cam to change and stop what he was doing, but that I had a part to play in the healing of our marriage. God led me to a website called Setting Captives Free. There was an online course for those with a pornography addiction, and there was a course for the spouses as well. It was  a 60 day course, and there were online mentors. I approached Cam with this idea the next day, and he reluctantly agreed. It was only because I was willing to do work too that he agreed. At first I was angry, the course for the spouses let me know that I needed to work on the issues that I brought to our marriage, it didn't just give me an outlet with someone on the other side feeling sorry for me, but I was committed to do this, so I continued with dogged determination. Cam on the other hand was not as committed to doing the course and many times I was a nagging wife cajoling him to do his lessons. Cam struggled with his addiction and he was not "cured" at the end of the course. Many times I would catch something on the computer even though he was computer savvy, I'm not sure if he was lazy or if God in His mercy allowed me to see what Cam didn't want me to see, so that he would get back on track to God's healing. Ultimately it took a series of illnesses for Cam to realize that God didn't want this pattern to continue, and that God wanted to be first in Cam's life, not Cam's addiction to porn. Cam started to listen when God laid him flat on his back in the hospital 6 times in one year, the last in ICU for 2 days and then 10 days in the hospital. When Cam realized that God had to be first, he changed, God filled that empty place that Cam had been stuffing with porn. Cam realized that the porn didn't satisfy like God did. When he understood that the emptiness he was trying to fill was meant to be filled with God, Cam found freedom. It is not always easy for him, and temptation loves to rear it's ugly head,  but now Cam has a battle plan and uses it. I have also learned how to encourage Cam, and we are on a journey together to learn how best to support, love and respect  one another. I believe that God has used what Satan meant for destruction for His glory. Our marriage is so much better than it used to be because we are honest with each other, and before God, we don't hold back from each other anymore. We are still on a journey, but a journey together with God, full of adventure and discovery. It is exciting! Praise God for His mercies, He is healing two broken souls, and knitting them together as one.
Cam runs a group for men with sexual addictions now. He wants other men to find their freedom in God like he has, and I run a group for women who are struggling because of their husbands addiction. We wives also need to find our freedom from hurt and pain, and our healing from our issues through Jesus. We cannot stuff it, or expect our husbands to do all the work in our relationships, we bring garbage too, we need to work on our own issues. When we invite God into our pain and struggle, God blesses the work that we do, He then blesses the marriages, He blesses it with Himself, and that is all anyone ever needs. Praise God that His mercies are new every morning.
 

Submission? What does it really mean?

This is a hard concept for me, I don’t believe I was taught this at home, and neither was Cam. Our society struggles with this word as well. Everybody wants their own way. In our culture everybody looks out for number one! And then there is the old saying that if momma ain’t happy then no one is happy. So what are we to do with the word submit in the bible? What does submission mean? How do we apply it today? Maybe it was only meant for that time and culture. We live in different times, is it really meant for us?

Well to even begin to understand it, I want to research what it means, first I will look in the bible, then the dictionary and maybe I will come up with a working definition. Here we go…

Ephesians 5:21-33 (The Voice)

And the Spirit makes it possible to submit humbly to one another out of respect for the anointed. Wives, it should be no different with your husbands. Submit to them as you do to the Lord, for God has given husbands a sacred duty to lead as the Annointed leads the church and serves as the head. (The church is His body; He is her Savior.) So wives should submit to their husbands, respectfully, in all things, just as the church yields to the Annointed One.

Husbands, you must love your wives so deeply, purely, and sacrificially that we can only when we compare it to the love the Annointed One has for His bride, the church. We know He gave Himself up completely to make her His own, washing her clean of all her impurity with water and the powerful presence of His word. He has given Himself so that He can present the church as His radiant bride, unstained, unwrinkled, and unblemished – completely free from all impurity – holy and innocent before Him. So husbands should care for their wives as if their lives depended on it, the same way they care for their own bodies. As you love her, you ultimately are loving part of yourself (remember, you are one flesh) No one really hates his own body; he takes care to feed and love it, just as the Annointed takes care of His church, because we are living members of His body. “And this is the reason a man leaves his father and his mother and is united with his wife; the two come together as one flesh.” There is a great mystery reflected in this scripture, and I say that it has to do with the Annointed One and the church. Nevertheless, each husband is to love and protect his own wife as if she were his very heart, and each wife is to respect her own husband.

The word submit in the bible is the greek word Hypotassō which means

 - to arrange under, to subordinate

2) to subject, put in subjection

3) to subject one's self, obey

4) to submit to one's control

5) to yield to one's admonition or advice

6) to obey, be subject

This word was a Greek military term meaning "to arrange [troop divisions] in a military fashion under the command of a leader". In non-military use, it was "a voluntary attitude of giving in, cooperating, assuming responsibility, and carrying a burden".

In marriage or non military use submit was used to say that the wife was to voluntarily give in, or cooperate with her husband. She is not supposed to fight against him, she is to cooperate with him. When I look at the definition of cooperation in the dictionary this is what I find…

cooperate (also co-operate)

act jointly; work toward the same end • assist someone or comply with their requests

the Thesaurus says …

cooperate

verb

1 collaborate, work together, work side by side, join forces, unite,

2 be of assistance, assist, help, lend a hand

So we are to work together, join forces, team up, assist, help…, ok what is so hard about that? Nothing but my ego and my selfish, self seeking nature. I want my own way, it is hard to see someone else’s point of view, especially if it doesn’t line up with my point of view. If it doesn’t line up, I need to submit/cooperate with Cam. We need to discuss the issue, both of us, and if we don’t agree, I need to give in. What’s up with that God? how come I need to be the one to give in??? This totally goes against what I have been taught.

Of course I believe my way is better, so does Cam. If we constantly fight for the other to see our point of view and no one gives in, nothing gets done, we can’t move on… chaos ensues. Then how healthy is our marriage? Do I want to be right at all costs, even the cost of a healthy, happy marriage, and then a happy, healthy family? God I think I may see the point of submitting, please help me with this. Give me the strength and the courage to trust you and in turn trust Cam with the ability to make wise choices.

(See note at the bottom of the article if there is any violence or neglect in your marriage. This is definitely not God’s plan for you and your children!!!)

When I place Cam at the head of our family, the place God put him (God gave Cam this authority under Himself). Cam becomes accountable to God for the decisions he makes. God wants what is best for us, He wants to give us abundant life, God wants to prosper us, not to harm us, so the real question is can I trust God, that He knows better than me, Can I trust God with my life? This is the real question.

I believe I can. God has proved Himself trustworthy in my life in so many incredible ways. I believe that God will lead Cam to do what is best for me and our girls. I still struggle with wanting my own way, and I know that Cam has made some unwise choices in the past, and because he is human he will in the future… but the more I encourage Cam to look to God and seek God’s plans for our life, the better life will be for all of us. This is not about nagging, but encouraging. There is a BIG difference between those two words.

nagging

adjective

1 complaining, grumbling, fault-finding, criticizing.

2 persistent, continuous, unrelenting

nag ¹

verb

1 harass, badger, give someone a hard time, criticize, find fault with, henpeck

2 worry, bother, annoy, irritate

encourage |enˈkərij; -ˈkə-rij|

verb [ trans. ]

give support, confidence, or hope to (someone)

• give support and advice 

• help

ORIGIN Middle English (formerly also as incourage): from French encourager, from   en- ‘in’ + corage ‘courage.’

I love that this word submit in the New Testament times was a military term. If we look at our modern military and the way it is run, we see order, that there is someone in command (in charge) and everyone else is under their command. This is normal and there is no objections, or refusal to do as the one in command tells them to do. If everyone rejected or refused to do what they were told and did it their way, there would be absolute chaos. It is a given that you obey your commanding officer. If there is order they are more effective in battle, the job gets done. There is an attitude of giving in, cooperating, assuming responsibility and carrying/sharing a burden. The higher the rank in the military the higher the level of responsibility and accountability there is.

This is the same with marriage, if everyone is fighting for their way in marriage it is chaos, and nothing good comes out of chaos, only pain and suffering. We are in a battle together against unseen forces in the spiritual realm, we need to join forces against the evil that intends to steal, kill and destroy from us personally, in our marriages and from our families. Our enemy tries to fool us into fighting against each other instead of  working together and fighting him. Satan wins if we fight with each other, then we take our attention off the real battle, the battle against the evil spiritual forces that are working to kill, steal and destroy everything that God created and loved, and that includes marriage and family.

God I choose to believe that you knew what you were doing when you created marriage, and that through marriage you might use it to teach me and change me into who you want me to be, and that ultimately you will use it to show the world your glory. Thank you God that you are full of grace and mercy.

God I need you to help me understand what submit means to you, and why you gave that responsibility to us wives. You know that my human nature fights this idea of submission, you know this will not be easy for me. Please give me your grace and mercy as I struggle with this. Help me to adopt the attitude of your Son Jesus, not my will but yours be done. Help me to act in accordance with your will even if I never fully understand the why. I place myself and our family in your hands God, I trust you. I believe that you have plans for us, to prosper not to harm, as your word says. Thank you God!!

* note: My marriage is healthy enough not to suffer with violence, or neglect, if you have to deal with these things, you need to seek the help of wise, godly counselors or friends, and maybe even the police. God put people in these positions of authority to help those who suffer at the expense of those who are not walking in His ways. Seek help from your pastor, or a trusted friend, or the police, don’t suffer, God didn’t intend for that for you. His plans for you and for me are to prosper us, not to harm us. He loves you, and He would want you out of a dangerous situation. Tell someone! Don’t sit there and suffer!

What is Three Strands all about?

^{Ecclesiastes 4:9-12 (NLT)
9} Two people are better off than one, for they can help each other succeed. ¹⁰ If one person falls, the other can reach out and help. But someone who falls alone is in real trouble. ¹¹Likewise, two people lying close together can keep each other warm. But how can one be warm alone? ¹² A person standing alone can be attacked and defeated, but two can stand back-to-back and conquer. Three are even better, for a triple-braided cord is not easily broken.
Three Strands is about women becoming what God planned when He created Eve as Ezer Kenegdo (helpmeet) to Adam. It is about women stepping up to become the shield mate to their husbands who are in battle against our enemy and his ploys meant directly for men like lust, pornography, and sexual addiction. It is about woman engaging in their own battles against the enemies attacks against them, like low self image, insecurity, self focus, etc. It is about women falling in love with their creator and learning where their worth and value lies. It is about women coming together to commit to praying for themselves, their husbands and marriages, both corporately and individually. Petitioning God to step into their marriages, to heal their marriages, to help them to become one as God intended in marriage, and to help them to fight effectively against the spiritual warfare that is attacking marriages in this day and age.

It is also about praying against the messages that the enemy has been telling women all our lives, and learning to listen to the one who made us, the one who finds them incredibly captivating, and who wants to stop the lies and tell them the truth. That God’s women are beautiful, lovely, alluring, precious, valuable, and captivating. That it is time for us to stop hiding our beauty, the world needs us.

God has given me this message, it is time for me to shout it out loud!

What God is telling me about His women:

Tell them I love them!

Tell them I gave them value at a great price.

Tell them they are beautiful, that I find them captivating

Tell them I gave up everything for them.

Tell them that through them I will heal the world, through their hands and feet. I will make their hands and feet mine, I will heal families through them, first their own, then others around them. I will heal marriages, I will heal broken people through them, this world is crying out for them, they are needed!!!

I have given them a nurturing spirit for a reason!

They are my beloved and I am theirs.

God wants me to tell them they are never alone, I am close and intimately involved.

God wants to heal them in the deepest places, where they thought that nobody notices. He notices.

Tell them how God has given them significance.

Tell them God’s enemy has tried to destroy them, but that God is not going to let him. They are God’s, and God’s alone.

God has a new name for you. It is Beautiful, Beloved, Precious, Valuable, Captivating, and Lovely.

God wants you to stop hiding your beauty, He created you because the world is desperate for you. It needs you. Only you can do what He created you for. If you don’t the world loses out. There is a purpose for your life. God will show you if you listen to His voice and pay attention to what He is showing you. He needs to be your all, your most intimate relationship.

God wants me to tell women to stop competing with each other and start working together. Women are more when they give others room to be who they are. They are more when they work together.